Succeeded but Depressed

My days of playing hockey are officially over and I can not believe it. I am so desperate to get back on that ice and skate with my team but it will never happen again. Two nights ago at the Chelmsford Form in Chelmsford my team lost in the first round of the Division 1 State Tournament. First time I have ever lost a playoff game in my three years on the Burlington High School hockey team after winning the states two years in a row. We lost 4-0 and I could not be more upset about it. I wanted to end out strong with my boys but it just didn't happen that way. As soon as that third period ended, all my memories of being on this team sunk in my head real fast and I couldn't help but cry until I got home. An hour of continuous crying. I was depressed at the time and I still am today. I know one day my depression will end but I know for a fact that won't be anytime soon. I just wanted to end my last year of ever playing hockey on a good note by defending our championship. I wanted to be like the last two senior classes, by ending it with a win. They were my biggest idols ever and I couldn't help but thank them for an incredible ride through the season and the playoffs the last two years. This year was amazing as well, but it wasn't enough to send us off with another title. But now, I am starting to realize that I have succeeded so much in just three years of high school hockey that not many people have accomplished in there high school hockey career, and that's winning two state championships and having two beautiful state championship rings that will keep me with an enormous amount of memories that will last a lifetime. Even though the accomplishment of winning one state championship is incredibly hard to do, winning two is extremely hard to accomplish. I will always love my teammates no matter what happens and I can not thank them enough. Love you guys. Thank you.